At some point in our lives,
We'd start questioning ourselves with "what if?"
What if I stopped being lazy, and sat down and really studied?
What if I never listened to my mum, and picked the job I really wanted?
What if I continued exercising everyday, and never slacked?
What if I had enough guts to ask that hot babe out?
What if I never let him go?
The problem with "what if", is that your chance has already passed.
Or, you're uncertain of what you want to do.
I used to be this person, who'd always let herself down.
Really, I played on self-sabotage, all the time.
Honestly, it sucked.
Looking back, I know things would be so different for me now,
If I actually did things differently.
If I studied, I would've gotten straight As in my SPM.
If I pursued music further, I wouldn't be in advertising. I'd probably have ended up in MPO or something.
If I practiced my tennis more, I'd have won some competitions.
If I pursued my love of performing, I would've ended up in the theater.
The thing about me, that I'm very sure of at this point,
Is that I know I have tons of potential in me.
But my mistake was, I let myself down.
But then again, I wouldn't exchange any part of what I have now,
To get what I could've gotten way back then.
Sure, I'm not in the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra,
Yeah, I'm not a straight A student,
And of course, I never so much as entered any tennis competitions.
But I have a job that I absolutely love,
A career that's off to a flying start,
Achievements that most people my age never get till much later,
Experiences that most people my age don't encounter till about.... 4 years later,
And a future that is, although uncertain, definitely off to a good start.
So I've stopped asking myself "what if?",
And turned it into "what else?".
What else can I do, to make my ideas better?
What else is there, for me to improve?
What else can I do, to get that creative award?
What else can I do, to win the next creative pitch?
What else can I do, to wow my clients?
What else can I do, to bring myself one more step closer to my dreams?
Doesn't that sound better, than all of the "what if-s" in our lives combined?