Can I?

I can.

Just not right now. :)

Guilty Pleasure

This is it, I'm coming out of the closet.

I love Korean music.

I swoon over the hot Korean guys.

I am a (borderline) Korean fan girl.

Big bang rocks kay.

Especially Top. Mm that voice. ;)

Here their latest video, and I must say, they are getting better and better.

I'm happy to say

That emo Eileen has gone!

Yes! No more annoyingly emo posts because she has packed her bags and moved to Antarctica. :D

In comes completelynonsensicallysenselessfilledwithtakdekerjaness Eileen.

*jumps for joy* Clap lah! Feel happy for me! :D

Unfortunately I am super bored.

Like seriously, I can go watch my plants grow, and that would be more interesting.

I feel so jobless (padahal I do have a job lah, but I called for another day off cos my wisdom tooth is aching)

On that note, why do they call it a wisdom tooth?

It's not like I've gotten any wiser.

And all four of mine have grown out.

Am I supposed to be four times wiser? -.-

I would totally yank out all four of my teeth, but apparently I'd die of blood loss.

Apparently after pulling one out, I have to stay in for 4 days.

Which means, I need to rest a total of 16 days when I do yank all four teeth.

That would be the lesser of two evils, considering that the first time one of my wisdom teeth grew out, I was in so much pain that I had fever.

But then there's another problem,

I'm going for internship in 2 weeks lah.

I suppose my best bet would be to yank at least ONE of them out lah.

Which means I need to go for surgery.

Which means I might not be able to talk for days.

I don't think I have a problem with not talking,

It's just that, it's really really annoying.

Especially when I'm annoyed with someone and I dearly wish to scold them about it but I can't.

I can totally imagine the scene:

Random College Mate (RCM): AUNTIE EILEEN!!!!!

Me And My Muffled Mouth (MAMMM): MMMMMPHHH!!!

My Cynically Annoyed Self (MCAS): Shaaaddaaaaap lah!

RCM: Oh that's right, YOU CAN'T TALK! HAHAHAHA!

MAMMM: MMMPH MMM MPHH!

MCAS: Evil being, spawn of Satan, I CURSE YOU!

RCM: Poor little Eileen, can't speak. HAHAHAH!

MAMMM: MMMPH MMPH MM!!

MCAS: AAAHHH SCREW YOU!

Yes that just about sums it up.

Don't get any ideas, you.

Be My Escape

Yes yes this blog is getting super depressing.

Here's... Ah, an attempt to lighten the mood.

I love Relient K. :)

However, I prefer this version of the song, compared to the original one.

This song is meant to be sung slow, I feel.

The original one had too many instruments, and was sung a bit too fast.

Not to say it wasn't good. It's just that the orchestral placement, and tempo were a bit off.

As in, it didn't suit the melody, and especially, the deeply meaningful lyrics.

I mean, I heard the original first and I thought it was cool.

Then I found the acoustic, and I thought it sounded perfect.

After

So many nights,

Of going between emotions,

Of wondering,

Of hurting,

Of insomnia,

Of being confused,

Of crying,

She finally decided to let go.

He never contacted,

She wondered what happened.

She worried,

She feared,

She hurt.

She felt that he was a stranger, no longer known to her.

So she decided it's time to let go.

At least there was a direction.

Instead of going in between holding on and letting go.

Because it tore her apart.

Because holding on felt so much more painful.

She fought,

God knows how she fought.

But it was no use.

So she raised the white flag,

And left.

It was all a dream.

A lie.

I

Am no fluffy bunnies,

Fairytales,

Happy endings,

Riding off into the sunset with your knight in shining armor person.

People who know me, would know that the last thing I am,

is girly.

Like the all things pink and cutesy and princessy.

Nope. Sorry wrong number.

Hello, I'm one of the largest cynics on Earth. Ask anyone.

I don't believe in happy endings.

I think that every story with a happy ending is complete bullshit.

Despite (and I may sound hypocritical) how satisfying you feel when you read a happy ending.

I think people made that happy ending just to make us all feel better about ourselves.

To think, oh if this happened to so-and-so (insert dreamy hero/heroine name here),

It can happen to me.

Hence, hope (cue shining light with angels singing in background)

Bullshit.

Problems don't go away.

They come and go,

Disturb the calm.

Cause discord among people,

Ties severed,

Hearts broken.

It comes to a point when you have to realize that after slaying one dragon,

A newer, meaner one comes out.

So you can't expect to ride into the sunset peacefully and nothing else is going to disturb your happy lives.

The only thing we can do about it, is to solve the problem.

Work,

Persevere.

I don't believe in sitting, waiting, and dreaming.

Hoping the problem solves itself.

You may as well crossover to lah-lah-land.

I slay my own monsters.

But in solving that problem comes another problem:

It depends if both parties want to solve it.

If one wants to and the other doesn't, what's the point?

So there's another problem,

The party that wants to solve the problem has to think of a way to solve that problem,

But how does the party do it when the other party is unwilling?

And in that problem comes another problem.

And if that problem isn't solved, the problem doesn't go away.

Am I making sense?

Probably not.

Bottom line, happy endings, no such thing.

I never believed in it, and I never will.

Besides, who says every story needs an ending?

If there's an ending to each of our stories,

It'd be death.

Sounds depressing, don't it?

Now there's another problem...

And again I'm not making any sense.

Question 1

Dear Girl, after a fight with your loved one, and he never contacts you for days, what would you do?

A. Call and apologise even though he's at fault too. Beg him to come back to you.

B. Call and tell him it's over

C. Bitch about him, take revenge.

D. Ignore the idiot and enjoy yourself. Be at your most awesome. He doesn't exist to you any more. If you don't exist to him, why should he exist to you?

I choose D.

Life

Goes on.

Move on.

Don't stop.

Don't quit.

Keep going.

Keep moving.

Don't think.

Don't feel.

Just keep going.

The sun will still rise,

Just as surely it will set.

Just as surely everything keeps going.

So you keep going.

But why does it hurt so bad?

Enough's Enough

I need to get a grip.

No more childishness.

I'm 20.

I shouldn't do this.

Taxi Driver Rapes Girls, Forces Them To Be Sex Slaves

SIX Malaysian high school students were allegedly forced to be a taxi driver's sex

slaves after he reportedly raped them and threatened to release videos of the act if they told anyone.

The Star said today the 54-year-old taxi driver reportedly picked up girls, aged between 15 and 17, outside their schools and drove them to his house in Taman Muda, Ampang, telling them he had to attend to an emergency.

It was alleged he would then rape the girls and film them on his phone, using the recordings to threaten the girls into giving him sexual favours for almost a year, police said.

One of the alleged victims decided to go to the police after confiding in a close friend, who asked her why she took the same taxi all the time.

Two of the girls attended the same school and lodged a police complaint on May 20, a third victim came forward on May 29.

Ampang Jaya OCPD Asst Com Abdul Jalil Hassan said they believed there was an accomplice who made the recordings, which reportedly showed the victims screaming, crying and pleading with the cabbie to release them.

The suspect, who has been a taxi driver for 17 years and had no previous criminal records, lived alone. He was remanded for seven days until Monday at the Ampang Jaya district police station. The taxi had also been taken to the station, The Star said.

Because the recordings showed six different girls, police were urging the three other victims to come forward.

Source: The Daily Telegraph

Honestly sickening.

And I take the taxi when I have no transport.

I have no idea what's happening to Malaysia.

What Words Are

I heard this a long time from a friend.

Expanded the first sentence.

Words are just words when the person who said them didn't mean them.

They don't hold water,

They don't hold anything,

and they never will.

People will say so many things,

Make so many promises to you,

And never mean them,

Never keep them.

Never say anything you don't mean,

Especially not to a girl.

Never make a promise to anyone,

And break it.

Especially not to a girl.

Because her heart will break.

Because she was waiting with baited breath for you to keep that promise.

Because she hoped so much that you would keep that promise.

Because a promise to her is a test of how much you love her.

A fulfilled promise, is a measure of how important she is to you.

A broken promise, shows how much you fail at loving her.

Or maybe not at all.

Your excuses,

Your so-called reasons,

Were they really so important,

So much more important than your girl?

If they were, then she really isn't all that important.

Never make a promise that you can't fulfill.

You'll save the heartache.

If you wanted her to trust you,

You shouldn't have promised.

Keep this in mind.

Before you lose your hold on her.

And she leaves with someone who deserves her.

But if she's not important, you wouldn't care,

Would you?

"Be careful little lips, what you say;

For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray."

- Slow Fade, Casting Crowns

Cross My Heart

And hope to God,

There will be a better tomorrow.

Cross My Heart,

I tell no lies.

I will always be by your side.

Cross my heart,

Swear to God,

I love you, that I do.

Cross My Heart,

I say to you,

I'll never break my promise to you.

Won't you cross your heart and fulfill all those promises too?

A Fire Extinguisher vs. Human Life

KUALA LUMPUR: A man’s desperate attempt to save a woman from her burning car was in vain because petrol kiosk attendants refused to lend him their fire extinguishers despite his pleadings.

The tragic 3.30am incident yesterday happened after an accident involving the woman’s Perodua Myvi, a couple’s Toyota Vios and a lorry with two men.

The accident, on the flyover along Jalan Cheras near Jalan Loke Yew, caused the Myvi to catch fire.

Grim aftermath: The burnt car after the accident in Cheras early yesterday morning

Among the earliest to arrive on the scene was 31-year-old Teo Chai Yong.

He was on the phone with the emergency hotline operator when he heard the frightened screams of “Tolong! Tolong! Help me!” from a woman in a Myvi. Sparks flew from under the car.

Teo quickly drove to the nearest 24-hour petrol station, less than 500m away, hoping to find a fire extinguisher.

“As I ran up to the paying counter, I saw four fire extinguishers behind the glass door. An attendant was on the other side.

“I pleaded with him to let me have the fire extinguisher and screamed that someone was pinned inside a burning car.

“But he just stared at me and kept saying he was not allowed to open the door after hours,” Teo said.

In desperation, Teo even offered to buy the extinguishers and showed the attendant his identity card.

Shortly, a second attendant showed up beside the first man and told Teo to call the fire department if there was a fire.

In frustation, Teo rushed back to the accident scene, only to see the car, with the woman still inside, engulfed in flames.

“She was still screaming but I could do nothing. I just stood there, her screams grew more frantic before fading away,” he said in a telephone interview.

BH Petrol’s managing director Tan Kim Thiam, when contacted, expressed regret over the incident at one of their petrol stations.

He said robberies were common in those hours.

“The staff were concerned and did not respond to the request as they could not see the accident,” said Tan, who declined to comment further.

City traffic police investigations chief Deputy Supt Abdullah Roning said the woman was burnt beyond recognition and her personal identification documents were also lost in the fire.

“We believe she was a 27-year-old college student from Sarawak,” said the city police prosecution division head.

The driver of the Toyota Vios and his girlfriend were also seriously injured and were rushed to Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia here.

The case is being investigated under Section 41 (1) of the Road Transport Act 1987 for reckless or dangerous driving.

Source: The Star Online

So they were more afraid of a robbery than a person dying. I hope your conscience rests well with this.

Lady Gaga = Satanic

Got this from Deirdre Wong.

Honestly, I laughed when I saw this.

And no, it's not because I believed that Lady Gaga was satanic all along.

Just to be clear, yes I am Christian. No, I am not bashing my own religion. No, I have no problem whatsoever with the religion itself.

But seriously???? All the social issues and problems happening in the world and you people choose to uncover this??

So who are you to judge? According to the Bible, we're not supposed to judge........ Now open that book and tell me I'm wrong.

It kinda looks as though some extremists really hated Lady Gaga and decided to distort her lyrics.

You know, I think there's a continent called Africa somewhere on Earth where people are dying of starvation......... But apparently dying people aren't important enough for you people to help.

Let me try....

To write a story.

There was a lady,

We'll call her Shirley.

She was old and alone.

A spinster, living with her cat Pussems.

In an old house at Jalan Ampang.

Every morning, Shirley would wake up,

give Pussems his milk,

wash up,

make breakfast,

and read the papers.

At night she was Shirley the Superwoman.

Pussems was her trusty sidekick, Pussy.

She could fly in the air,

Shoot laser beams from her eyes,

Lift a piano with one finger,

Knit a hundred sweaters in a minute.

Yes, that's Shirley.

A nice little old woman by day,

Bad-ass superwoman by night.

Didn't see that one coming did ya?

What? You mean old people can't be superheroes too?

Shame on you! Don't discriminate.

I think they'd make pretty cool superheroes.

Imagine grandmas and grandpas flying around in leotards and capes.

Underwear inside out.

Lifting heavy objects..... Without breaking their backs.

Nice world to live in, don't you think?

Things To Do Before I Go For Internship

1. Pick up my driving.

Considering that I'm going to work, I don't think I want to mafan people into sending me to work.

Plus it's all the way in Bangsar, the not-so-holy place where all traffic jams occur. I doubt I want to depend on public transport either, in case I have to reach home late, that's not safe at all.

And I'm a big girl now lah. High time I start depending on my own transport.

2. Figure out faster not-so-jammed way from Bandar Sri Damansara to Bangsar.

Based on statement above, I do not want to be caught in traffic jams all the time.

3. Buy more OL clothes.

It's internship. Nuff said.

4. Learn to wear heels.

Woo Eileen and heels do not agree. That is, till she needs to start working.

5. Buy a new bag.

My current one is dying. As much as I love it, I'll have to let it go.

6. Re-dye my hair, and do something about my fringe.

My hair color is fading, and I really miss my red hair. My fringe ah..... Well, it's becoming a bother, really. Blocking my face at times, it covers my face and looks very untidy.

7. Buy more jeans.

Anyone who's gone to college with me know I normally wear shorts, occasionally jeans, once in a while skirts, and when I wear a dress, they can go buy lottery already. Don't think my employer will be too happy with me dressing like that though.

8. Read up or reread the briefs I've had to do back in Account Management.

Oh, yes, I'm working as an Account Executive. So I'll need to recall how to write these things.

9. Finish Semester 5

Internship in Sem 6, haven't finished Sem 5 how to go Sem 6? Ish.

Going Back

If you had the power of time travel,

Or the choice to travel through time,

Would you take it?

If you asked me,

I wouldn't.

I mean, it'd be nice to correct our past mistakes,

To make it all right.

But when I really think about it,

It's those mistakes,

Those flaws that I hate,

Those things I did and that I regret,

That make me who I am.

You see, people make mistakes.

It's part of human nature.

Doesn't matter who you are, you're bound to make these mistakes.

But the best part of it all is that you learn from them,

And try not to make them again.

No matter how huge the mistake it is,

I personally feel that as long as you learned something, it's all that matters.

Which is also why I believe in second chances.

And also why I believe in constant forgiveness.

Because we're all human.

There's no point bitching about each other, really.

For all you know you might make a bigger mistake than others.

And honestly, if we could all travel through time and correct every mistake,

We'd have a perfect world.

And to me, that's pretty boring.

It's these little quirks in our world that makes it so interesting, don't you agree?

I'll end this with one of my favorite quotes:

"God doesn't give you the people you want,

He gives you the people you need.

To hurt you,

To love you,

To teach you,

To break you,

To turn you into the person you're supposed to be."

- Unknown

A Good Thing

It's something most of us are never really grateful for.

Till it's too late.

Humans are such funny creatures.

It's weird how we never truly appreciate the people who matter, till they're gone.

And it's weird how most of us never really realize that.

Till it happens to us.

I guess we all need a reality check, once in a while.

We all think "Nah, it's never gonna happen to me."

The truth is, it can happen to anybody.

You may be lucky enough for it to "never happen to you".

In one split second, you could lose the one thing that matters most to you.

And by that time, it may be too late to get it back.

Appreciation.

That's what we all lack, I think.

If the world just appreciated more, cared more, we'd have less fights.

I have a friend whose dad just passed away.

As I listened to his story, it hit me.

His dad was around my dad's age.

And his dad died of a heart attack.

It is the saddest thing anyone could face.

In just one moment, his entire life is changing.

And there isn't much that he can do about it.

All I'm saying is, we need to appreciate more.

Love more.

The little things a person does for you do matter.

Even though you'd feel that it's not much,

You'd notice them even more when the person is gone.

It'd be too late to appreciate them by then.

I don't know about you, but I don't want to end up regretting the fact that I never appreciated the people that matter in my life.

So take note.

Love more.

At the very least, whenever there are changes, you will have no regrets.

Because you can tell yourself, you did what you could.

While it lasted.

Someone, please help me understand

Justin Bieber, ladies and gents.

How this guy can have so many mentally unstable (YES MENTALLY UNSTABLE) fans?

The little psychos sent death threats to Kim Kardashian just 'cos he called her his girlfriend (APPARENTLY untrue. I don't follow tabloid.)

I mean hello? He's a 16 year old who squeaks like a mouse. He sounds like a girl. CAN YOU PEOPLE NOT SEE THAT? I mean, is he even a HE? By normal standards, or as far as I know, by the time a guy hits 16, his voice gets deep.

I swear, the minute his voice breaks, his career ends.

If his voice never breaks, I swear he's a SHE in disguise.

I suppose he can sing lah, I mean, to give him the benefit of the doubt, his voice is okay....... If he were a girl.

I watched one of his interviews for the first time (I refused to have anything to do with him prior to this entry), and the moment he spoke I nearly fell off my chair.

I mean picture this, oh wait you don't have to picture it, here's the video!

I pretty much expected his voice to sound at least a little like a teen boy, but holy cow, this boy in a soon-to-be man's body strolls in and the minute he talks.... It's a squeak.

And is it just me, or do his lyrics lack creativity?

Sure, his songs are long enough to qualify as a "song", but there sure are a lot of repeats of the same words.

Exhibit A:

Baby - Justin Bieber

I don't know, I lost count of the number of times he sang "baby" and "oh".

Honey, that is not creativity. That we call "copy paste". I cannot tell you how many times I've suffered every time this song played on the radio. Dear Lord, make it stop.

And it gets stuck in my head for an annoyingly long time. Dear God please take it away!

I'm sure most of you have heard his songs already, so I'm not gonna put any more up here.

Seriously, how can anyone get turned on by this, unless the person is a pedophile? Now I am not saying his fans are pedophiles, there is a question mark at the end of that sentence. The purpose of that is to leave it ambiguous.

So I don't know. All I see is a little boy (or is it a girl) in a supposedly growing man's body prancing around singing songs that honestly lack creativity.

Can someone please tell me what is so sexually appealing?

Big Bang's Top - Solo.

Now that's what I call a manly voice. He has the manliest voice I've ever heard so far. And boy is it deep. *swoons*

Robin Thicke - Lost Without You

Now that's a sexually appealing voice. This guy can turn me on in one note. Mm.

I'm gonna have Justin Bieber psycho fan death threats now, aren't I?

Once Upon a Time

I have nothing to write. When I have nothing to write, I abandon the blog. And so I stopped writing for days. The days turned into weeks and before I knew it it was a month.

Let's see how long this continues. I don't know. I am technically writing something now. But seriously this has no particular topic.

I'd sing a song but the screen is blocking and no I will not post a video of myself singing on YouTube. I refuse to humiliate myself, really. Not that people would want to listen to me anyway.

My singing is exclusively reserved for the walls of my bathroom. Oh yes it's that bad.

Have I ever mentioned that I like Glee? Yes this caveperson has finally gotten out of the confines of her cave to watch one of the most popular series around and I must say it is good! I like how they made the songs relevant to every episode.

I must admit I was skeptical of how a musical could be made into a series, and be successful. I humbly admit I was wrong.

So I have no idea why I'm posting this, I have some research to catch up on but I guess I'm just really bored. Yes this post is to waste my time because I have nothing better to do. This is really out of the blue I'm just throwing words in now.

I think I better stop before someone throws a shoe or food or something or whatever they throw at people who are bad at entertaining oh wow I haven't put a full stop or a comma in this sentence it must be exhausting reading this I bet you're really annoyed now aren't you? :)

Oh god shut up and do your assignments, Eileen.